Merry Christmas all.....

Yes, I realise it's been awhile since I posted. I guess the last post we were waiting to hear if we passed court in Ethiopia.

Well, as it turned out we didn't actually have a court date on the 5th like we thought. The birth mother broke her leg and was unable to get to court. So we got rescheduled for Dec 18th, but still haven't heard if we passed. You will all find out once we know.

We are off to Mexico tomorrow and will be there until the New Year. A great place to be when you are trying to keep your mind off of if we passed court or not. I felt like I wasted a good part of my week when we were waiting to find out if we passed or not, waiting by the phone and checking email. So I will be warming up my bones, swimming and eating salsa rather than racing to the phone each time it rings!

Want to shout out to all who I have connected with thru blogging or other sources of social networking. You guys are a super outlet and understand what's going on. Thanks for taking the time to write your own posts to tell what you are going thru. You guys are real gems.

To all my in IRL(in real life) friends, thanks for supporting us and keeping us in your thoughts and prayers.

Here's to an awesome 2010. Looking forward to what this year holds. Peace out.

Johnny Cash is comin' to town.....

Remember this post? (and don't just pretend to read it...actually read it!) It is such a good way to remember about the true meaning of Christmas.

Once again, I am in a grumpy post CAFAC email. It turns out we may not find out until NEXT week if we passed court or not. BOOOOOO.

As those of you who read my link to my old post saw, it was suppose to be my sister's turn to go to the annual Christmas party. But since she is working, it looks like I will be going in her place!

Good thing, because I need a good dance with Malcom to cheer me up. Except this year, Johnny Cash is making an appearance! What's your favorite Johnny Cash song? Ring of Fire? Get Rhythm? Walk the Line? I will update you on my favorite Johnny song after the big party.

Dec 5th, 2009

Dec 5th. Has almost come and gone....


I actually went about an hour into the day without thinking about Nev's court date.

J had a hockey game and we slept in a bit and had to run around the house like crazy trying to get J and Ad ready for the game! Here is a picture of our hockey star in action!

We then came home and put up the Christmas tree. J has been looking forward to it for awhile now, and Ad was gone for 5 nights so this was a good family time. It's the first year we have a "big" tree and it was fun decorating it. The past um.......11 years we had a 4 foot tree that my mom picked up at Salvation Arm, and it did the trick. It suited our houses because they were smaller and we didn't have a lot of room for a large tree. Now that we are on the farm and have lots of room we bought a 8 foot pre-lit tree. Since Jay has been born we have had a little tree ball that had a picture of her as an infant. This year we hung a photo frame of NEVAEH!! It was so special.

We won't find out for a few more days if we passed or not. I will be trying to stay as busy as possible without wearing myself down! I will give you guys an update once we find out our result.

P.S J scored a goal as well today. What a great day. Hope it is made even a better day by finding out that we passed!

Viva Las Vegas......

Vegas was great! It was a super fun time, but came home more tired than before we left. Vegas is definitely a place with lots to do, and not a lot of down time.

We went down for a hockey tournament for the team that Adam plays on. They played great and got 2nd. Great job boys. A funny moment was when the team pulled up to Caesars Palace in the cargo van. We had rented it for the hockey gear. It was a van with 2 seats, and the rest cargo space. Well the rink was about 1/2 away, so the guys decided to pile in, to save on cab rates. After the one game us wives also piled in and there was 22 people PLUS hockey bags! We pulled up to Caesars for valet parking and piled out of the van! I'm sure the high class people at Caesars wondered what in the world was going on! It was hilarious. Us wives also got a first hand experience of what hockey talk is about. It was definatily a memory I won't forget.

I also made it the whole trip without a brush or a comb! The joys of having straight hair! Maybe I will regret not buying one after I see some of the pictures. (I couldn't find mine before the trip, so we went without one!)

The trip was a great time to not focus on our upcoming court date on Dec 5th. There is nothing I can do to prepare for this court date, other than just pray that it goes well. Yes, Dec 5th is a Saturday, but that's how they roll down there, weekends don't hold the same value that we have up here! We won't find out until the following week if we passed or not, but rest assured we will update you as soon as we know something.

A lot of you ask if there is anything you can do for us in this journey. In the past I have said "thanks, but really there is not much you can do for us, but appreciate the offer." There have been some whom I have taken up on this by having them have J for a play date while doing paperwork or such, and to those I am so thankful.

Now, I am going to take you up on your offers! We would love if you will join us in prayer for our daughter Nevaeh. Please pray that even though Nev doesn't "know" us, she will be bonding with us. Pray that our first time that we meet her, she will feel our love and not want to go back to the caregivers she is used to. Pray that she will let her mom and dad hold her, hug her and kiss her, and that she will be comfortable in our arms. Pray that she will not be majorly affected when we remove her from the home she is so used.

I have been having some anxious feelings the past weeks of how our bonding with Nevaeh will be. Part of me was feeling so sad about taking Nev from all she knows. She will be taken by "strangers" and have no familiar settings to make her feel comfortable. I expressed some of my feelings in my last post. I am so blessed by my friends, both IRL friends(in real life friends) and my blogger friends. You guys totally uplifted me and helped get me back "up".

The biggest thing that made my heart calm down was an experience at church 2 weeks ago. I was singing in worship time and was once again wondering how Nev was doing that day etc.... I looked over and saw the pictures that are on our wall in church. The are ones I have seen every Sunday for the past while, but this time I really looked at them closely. They are pictures of Jesus with children. Ones almost exactly like the ones here. My heart was filled with warmth and I became calm, knowing that Jesus has Nevaeh in His arms, even though she is far, far from us. She is wrapped in His love, and he is going to have His arms around her when we meet her for the first time, and will have His arms around her for years to come. He will be with us in the moment of meeting her, in the moment of taking her away from the CAFAC home, and in every new circumstance. The pictures of Jesus with a bunch of children surrounding Him also made me think about how He is with all the kids in the home, who are waiting for their families to come and get them. Jesus loves the little children (everyone now, start humming it!!!!) but really...HE DOES. And He is with our daughter so many miles away. My heart is warm knowing that Nev is in His arms. **okay, kinda funny that I had Vegas update and Jesus photo's in the same post, but posts have been few and far between, so hey you get what you get!!!**

Hormonal pregnant lady on the loose......

Today I feel like a pregnant hormonal woman.

It's true. Lately I feel like I'm pregnant. And no, I'm not announcing that I am pregnant or anything, I am just "feeling" like I am.

This adoption process is taking a toll on me and it's getting really long. I have all the "extra" emotions that I did when I was pregnant with J. Minus the stretch marks and belly. (okay whose kidding who.....I do have stretch marks, and I do have a belly...so scratch that.)

I am short with the one's I love, bawling over teenie bopper movie, starting to get into the "nesting" stage (which, by the way, is not going real well when you don't have a functional basement to put all the stuff that is suppose to go in the basement.) I am frustrated that I can't get the room that is suppose to be Nevaeh's cleaned out. We are waiting until we officially pass court to start decorating her room, but still, it needs to be clean before we can even start to decorate it.

I am totally overwhelmed right now with it all. I am starting to worry about the bonding we will have with Nev. What if she cries and cries when we meet her, because we are total strangers to her. What about the 12 hour straight plane trip. How will I react to being a parent of a baby again, when I am so comfortable with the stage that J is at. I don't deal well with not sleeping(okay all who know me well, understand that is an understatement!!) and what if I hit the "wall" I hit with Jayden and get the blue's again. (again "the blues" is a major understatement.) How will I spread my time between two children when one needs me, but so does the other.

I am so tired of waiting, it feels like I am 42 weeks pregnant...WAY overdue. Actually, technically I am 82 weeks overdue. (2 years and 4 month =122 weeks - 40 weeks(normal pregnancy)=82 weeks OVERDUE. No wonder I have a few stretch marks and a belly.

See, I told you I feel like a pregnant hormonal woman today. And for the last weeks. Someone who has been there done that...please tell me it will get better. Oh....and book Molly Maid for me.....

For like a week straight.